This is a subject that I have to revisit every few months in this blog because I have to revisit it in my life as well. I have read that we revisit things in life until we learn the lesson we need to from them. Each time I revisit this spot in my life I learn a little more, but it appears I still have more to learn about being present in the now and that is okay. In reality I may have to revisit this lesson many more times in my lifetime. Maybe it is being impatient and then slowing down to breathe that also allows us to grow and create and appreciate more. If life is really a balance of yin and yang then it only makes sense that we cannot go too long in the light without needing the dark or in the dark without needing the light. All around us we see messages that we need to be happy all the time, but that is not even realistic. Life cannot always be perfect. We wobble in our poses and have to bring ourselves back to balance. I know that my darker moments make the lighter moments shine all the brighter and that without some of the worst parts of my life I would not appreciate some of the best moments as much.
What brought this particular blog post about is that lately I have been getting impatient with life. This happens from time to time, not just for me, but for all of us. Summer seems to make it worse for me since I live in a place where it becomes humid sauna that often zaps all energy within minutes of walking outside. Yes, some people love that… I am not one of those people. And so I get impatient for cooler weather, for a place that has outdoor activities that make my soul come alive, for a life that is a little less monotonous (work, hurry home to handle chores, sleep… rinse and repeat).
The impatience often gets me into this cycle of thoughts of the future that are not beneficial. Because while it is good to dream and to plan, it is equally important to be still in the present moment and count the blessings in our lives. No matter where we go or what we do there will be times that we get impatient for life to be something other than what it is. We get weary with the rat race and we start to focus on getting to the next quest in our journey. Note: I don’t just get like this in real life, I do this in gaming… rushing through the current quest to get to the next one and level up. Sometimes this leads to dropping off the side of a cliff or not noticing a piece that I need to complete my current quest. In letting impatience rule I end up spending more time that if I had just slowed to be in the current moment.
Funny how life works that way too. As I get impatient and feel myself lose balance I have to refocus in. Stop, slow down, breathe and appreciate where I am. I am here at this moment for a reason and I need to make myself focus on the present quest, not getting to the next one. There are some awesome things in the current one that I will surely miss if I don’t stop to appreciate this spot in the journey.
Part of the reason I push myself to try to maintain a daily yoga practice is that it helps me center back into the balance of being present in the now. You cannot do certain poses and maintain them if you aren’t present. When you get into a pose that makes your arms or legs shake you have to relax into that and find your balance even as you feel like you will topple and then you have to know that if you do topple you just get back up and start again. That is part of the practice and yoga like life is all about practice. The practice of yoga helps me balance not just as I am in yoga, but as I continue my quest in this life.
And so, as part of the being in the now and finding my balance I am taking a few moments to focus on the good in the now of life.
While I might hate being in the rat race at least I have a good job that allows me to live a good life. There is an adorable dog who keeps me motivated when I wouldn’t always be. A little buff/ginger cat who follows me around purring and always wants to cuddle. My mama who loves me and encourages me and reminds me of the beauty in life when I forget it. My brother who loves me even when I drive him crazy. Friends who remind me of the good, of the love that surrounds us all. There is also this guy who firmly and sweetly reminds me that this moment is important, that I need to rest, and that even in all my flaws I am beautiful inside and out.
Friends, in this world that pushes us to constantly go and grind it is imperative that we learn to stop and just be – that we find our balance even if it lasts just a smidgen of time. Slow down and breathe.