Recently I got stuck in that mindset of looking at everywhere I could be that is not where I am. It’s easy to do when we feel like each day we get on the hamster wheel and that there will never be more than life caught in the Matrix and that I must have taken the blue pill instead of the red.
This isn’t true to who I am though. I am a dreamer who often gets lost in a world outside of the “normal” that society has created around us. In my life I have accepted that it is inevitable to have some down moments or times that are not filled with complete joy. We need the variety of feelings to really appreciate the best moments. So, I am learning to let myself be in the times that I feel like all I want to do is just get the heck out of where I am. Once that season has passed (and it usually happens quickly) then it is time to return to my truth of truly seeing the beauty that is all around us, of appreciating the little moments spent with those we love, of knowing that I am where I am supposed to be in this moment.
It has been easier to learn to roll with this because I have someone to share it with. Someone who gets it and has a wonderful way of bringing me back to finding my joy. Someone who encourages me to keep dreaming, always, while also reminding me to be here in the moment. I am not gonna lie, being in the moment is a completely different experience when it is shared with someone you love sharing with.
It’s fitting that my soul has been feeling renewed in a season of renewal for the earth. Seasons are necessary for the planet and for our lives. Every year I understand that with more clarity. I know that I need to have these seasons of discontent with the “normal” life to help me find the path I really want to be on and to keep me motivated to get there. Even better as I do this is having someone to share the journey with!
Bring on the new growth, the sweetness of Spring… for my soul and the earth!