Tomorrow I turn 43. In some ways it does not seem possible. At 20 it seemed like 40 was thousands of years away. Now 40 has come and gone. Reality? Every year has gotten better for me.
At 32 I was going through my divorce, my whole life had drastically changed. Life never stopped, it was work with more work with more work and squeezing in time to enjoy being alone or with friends. It was a time to find FREEDOM in a way that I could feel down into the deepest parts of my soul.
At 36 I bought my little house and started the adventure to really find myself. In part thanks to an eclectic and zany roommate who in her own unique way made my little house into a home full of laughter and crazy moments of fun. 37 rolled along and I followed my soul into the exploration of new thoughts and beliefs that has never stopped.
At 41 the phase of digging deep to accept my flaws and find the beauty in them came into full fruition and that digging has not stopped.
At 42 I found a whole new world filled with colors and brightness that I never expected existed. I have also found that I can do some things that scared me. Falling isn’t as terrifying as I thought it was. My life is filled with love and friendship that words cannot explain. Souls understand it. Earlier in this post I referenced a time when I found FREEDOM I could feel into the deepest parts of my soul and I did then, but I have found it more in this past year. In the past several months I have found that there is a different type of freedom. The freedom to openly let people know how much you love them. The freedom of letting another person see into who you are. That FREEDOM has created a peace I never expected.
At almost 43… I am more comfortable in my own skin than ever before. My body is healthy, my soul is warm. Life is not perfect, there are things I want to have that I don’t and places I still want to go. Life is good though. Life is incredibly good. I am looking forward to enjoying the year of 43. There are adventures to have! I have incredible friendships! There is a guy who I adore who is incredibly patient with my weird moments and always ready to celebrate the good moments (excuse me while I get all mushy)! Life is indeed beautiful!
Wherever you are in your life, find the good. It’s there.