It is no secret to those closest to me that opening and being vulnerable is one of the hardest things for me to do. It’s not wrong or right, it just is. The struggle to do that creates a complete mess in my soul. I want to do it and I fight it like a street brawler. There are a few people I will do it with and even then it can be difficult. Most of us struggle with this through life. We have our up and down moments. We have history that makes us want to hide away and not share.
However, as one friend recently said to me, sometimes you have to be vulnerable so that the other person knows they can be too. And as I recently discovered, sometimes we have to be for ourselves because we need to speak the words in our heart so that they do not create a wall between us and those we love. In the moments that we do that, no matter the outcome, once the words are out a weight lifts off of our shoulders.
Friends, in years past I promised myself that I would tell people how I feel, especially when it came to how much I care. The reality is that I faltered on that out of fear of how they might react. That is not fair to me or to the other person. It is time for me to reclaim that promise to myself. Because LIFE IS PRECIOUS and we never know what will happen.
So, today I renew that promise that even when it is uncomfortable I will try to be vulnerable and I will live the truth of my heart.
To those that love me through that struggle, you are blessings in my life.