Unsure and Hesitant and Still Moving Forward

My writing has slowed as I battle internally with thoughts of where I want to be in life and what I truly want. I am a Pisces, a full on fish swimming in two different directions and therefore my soul always seems pulled Pisces. Goodness knows that I feel bad for anyone that deals with my constant inability to want to settle on one idea. There are constants: I always want a pet of some kind, I always want books nearby, I LOVE COFFEE, brunch is my favorite meal, and nature makes my soul happy. Oh, and if you are in my inner circle I LOVE and appreciate you even when I don’t talk to you often.

The ever-changing side, well that list is gigantic! Right now it’s more evident than ever for me as I try to decide how I want to live. Here’s the thing, I like having a yard and a house. What I prefer is a much smaller home and either a really large yard or a small space that requires little maintenance.

For most of the time I was with my ex-husband we lived in a travel trailer or 5th wheel. Sadly we never traveled in them… that was for someday. I loved living in a travel trailer. Yes, I know the cliché about people who live in travel trailers. I also know that I like tiny living. This having space I barely ever use makes me a little frantic and I have things I don’t need because I hate just having a room with nothing in it because that feels like a waste.

So, here I am trying to wrap my head around the idea I have had for over 15 years. The idea of living in a travel trailer and moving around the country. Trying different areas, being a bit of a gypsy. Because I want to experience an area and not just a week at a time on vacation. More along the lines of months at a time.

This is terrifying because I would be looking to hop from one place to the next and do seasonal work. This is also exciting because I would learn and see so much.

So, here I am with these fish inside my brain. One says to purchase property and be stable and one says to jump and experience life in a way that has been tantalizing and scary.

So, for now my friends, my writing might be a little our there and delve into a mess of differing sides because as I sort through them it helps me make sense of them when I put them out into this blog. Because the answer doesn’t have to be decided now. Right now what I need to do is keep sorting the thoughts and moving forward.

Much love.

Published by: nakedfeethappygirl

Not a fan of shoes. Love trails, painting, the sky, Dr. Who, Sherlock, and my little spotted dog. Founding member of Team FlashFoot. Obsessed with taking photos of the sky and flowers. Would rather be working in the yard than in a group of people. Sundays are made for margaritas.

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