Do you ever feel like you are supposed to be doing something different with your life, but you are not quite sure just what that is? You just know that where you are is not working for you. Sure, it works for society, for people you know… for you though it feels like your soul is suffocating. You can almost feel the life being sucked out of you and you know you have to change it or be miserable? Not that you are unhappy with life, not that you cannot do what you are doing, not that things are bad. You just don’t feel truly alive and you long to be elsewhere.
Those feelings rise up and then doubts start whispering into your brain and this battle rages. This battle that you cannot even adequately put into words so you don’t really talk about it because it does not make much sense to anyone who cannot hear it.
That’s where I have been lately. My creativity has waned as a result. Now it’s time to stop letting the fear of the unknown hold me back. When you awaken from dreams that are so real about what you know you want is the time to tell all the doubts to shut the f*ck up. Sometimes you have to leap to get out of your skin and into your new skin. Shedding helps us grow, but the process isn’t a joy.
So my friends, my posts may appear a little less. My ramblings may seem off. This is part of the shedding process. This is part of breaking up with fear and control issues. This is part of the journey to find me. The authentically imperfect me.
Stick with your journey. Trust it even when you cannot see the whole path. Allow it to be, whatever it is. Because all of these things make us who we are.