If you’ve ever experienced true brokenness then you know there’s an ache that you hide from the world. I think it starts at the moment you begin to break and sometimes early on you share a little of it, but eventually it becomes a silent part of you. Your life goes on and you can’t hold the pain too tightly and still function.
The pain gets pushed down in. Survival mode kicks in and you do whatever you have to for survival. Some days it takes everything to make one step, to get out of bed, to let yourself feel or care again.
It’s important to let yourself feel it and you have to let the feelings out as you’re able to deal with them.
A few years back I thought I was over certain emotions, painful emotions and memories. I’ve figured out that they might hurt a little less or not come out of hiding as frequently, but they are always with you. Just like physical scars that may fade, but are always there to remind you.
Moving on with life doesn’t mean you forget the past. It means you choose to take each step into the future.
This is my mantra, my inner reminder that it’s okay to feel and it’s equally okay to keep moving forward.